You ok mom? Everyday is hard but I know you are looking down on me and smiling making me be strong cuz if you saw me down about you leavin youu wud tell me .....'2 man up' haha! I am still saying jizzypig haha... i know u are still laughing about it but mommy it is really 2 hard atm 2 cope without u!!! I didn't really wana go back 2 col because i can't concentrate or anything, even thou i need 2. I have bin ill for 2 weeks with the bloody flu again and this time it was real... lol I miss our cuddles 2 much mom... i just need 1 more 2 keep me sweet. I lie on the sofa and just think i cud b warm cuddling mom. I have met a new girl tha dad can't stand haha.. but i think u wud lyk her a lil pretty blonde she is, u wud defo fink she is nyc but mom i know ur not hear to some ppl but i still have conversations with u cuz im a tit haha. The dog is ok by the way he is just a bit sad wen i'm out but he will be fine anyway I need 2 go 2 bed cuz i have got my 1st driving lesson 2moz lyk we used 2 talk about, but i wont crash honest haha. When my car is dun u look down and ava look ok, see if u approve!! luv u mommy and always will!!!!!! Goodnight my hero and my best friend!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ur little madhead xxxxxx